cried
Friday, 12 July 2013 | 06:01 | 0 comments
I think I've failed again
I supposed to be strong but Ideky I'm crying again
My heart is really hurt and it keeps hurting day by day
I hate being compare
I hate when someone said that I'm the reason who makes she or he mad when I'm not doing anything at all
I hate when someone yell at me about something's that I don't do
I hate when someone said something bad about my family and friends
I hate when someone said bad things to the one that I really-really love
I hate when my friends steal my bestfriends from me
And when I'm crying
There's some people who "fake" caring about me
Asking why, what happened, don't cry and all when they're not even cared about me
Sometimes I wondered, am I important in this world?
When I said, I really need someone
That's mean I really do. I need someone's shoulder to cry on
I need someone to hug me, comfort me and said everything's going to be okay
But do I really get those things? No.
I usually didn't tell people the reason why or when I'm sad and stress
I want they to notice it by themselves
I know this is sounds like I'm a selfish person
But when I care about someone, do they care back about me?
I wondered.
Maybe there are some people who care about me
But my other friends, do they really care?
Do they always be by my side when I cried?
When I cried in front of them, do they comfort me and hug me like I always wanted to?
I really want someone to understand me
I don't like to tell someone what's my problem
When someone ask me to tell what's my problem
I'm afraid, they don't understand me
And thinks that I'm stupid because of "that" things
Only my true friends understand it
But I'm only going to tell her when I decided to tell it
Some people said that I'm a strong person
But the truth is, I am not.
I cry easily
But not in front of others
bye
"70% of people pretend to be okay simply because they don't want to annoy others with their problems" and one of those 70% people is me.
